Mary J. Blige talks candidly about battling addiction, gay marriage, religion and more in the latest issue of Los Angeles Confidential magazine.

The Queen of Hip-Hop Soul has been through a lot of drama in her life, including being a drug addict for several years. She admittedly even appeared high at the 1995 Grammy Awards. "Back then? Shoot. I was drinking like a crazy person. Still sniffing cocaine going in," she recalls.

Miraculously, she overcame her drug addiction by embracing her Christian faith. "I don’t know why. But I didn’t want to go to rehab," she tells the magazine. "I believe that anything man himself can do for me, God can do for me in a greater way. I decided to pray and to seek God on my own. I just stayed in the Word. And it worked."

When asked what her views on gay marriage were, MJB felt it wasn't her place to judge other people. "I’m not God. God said not to judge anyone lest you be judged. That’s it," she attests. "Who am I to point my finger? You’ve got to walk in love. To say you do not want people to be happy is so mean, so not me."

Although Blige is a recovering addict, she insists that she's a work in progress. The 42-year-old veteran songbird maintains that one slip-up could lead her back to that dark place of misery and addiction.

"The test comes when you have to decide whether you’re drinking to be social or drinking to cover up something again. To cover up depression. To cover up guilt. Shame. Abandonment. All of that, man," she explains. "Once I realized, 'There you go again,' I had to stop. Whitney Houston’s death really affected me. Her death is another reason I stopped. I really do think I’m done. I looked at how that woman could not perform anymore."

"There have been so many other dark moments that I can't even talk about," she continues. "I have given the world so much and even in the middle of all that stuff there has been so much s--- going on. But it is those same things that now have taught me how to be strong. In the past those were the same things that were killing me. But I made it out. I made it out."

Mary J.'s Los Angeles Confidential cover is on newsstands now.


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